Friday, October 29, 2010

Waiting With You...

I did a little window shopping downtown after work today. The weather is so perfect! I wasn't looking for anything in particular. I love looking for fun, vintage items though! I found a few things that I liked and might be back for.

When I thought about starting this blog I told myself I wasn't going to be fake but I was going to be real..no matter if I felt like a fool about it. I want to help other people and not stay locked up in my world. I have been trying to share my life with you. I am not even sure anyone is reading my blog but I am happy to write anyways because maybe it helps someone.

As I was shopping today I just had this overwhelming feeling about wanting to be a mother. I want to be a mother so badly. Sometimes I wish my kid was just waiting for me at home. I wish I could pick up a cupcake or a new toy on my way home for them. I am not trying to act like motherhood is all roses. I think I can be pretty realistic about it. But it doesn't change the fact that I really want to be a mother. How every holiday I get a lump in my throat. Wishing I was the one shopping for that Halloween costume etc...

Waiting just stinks. Trying to figure it all out makes me tired. I have so much growing to do inside. Today I just confess that it can be really hard waiting. You may feel the same about your situation. But I know we are not without the merciful love of Jesus....and today that thought is getting me through.

Waiting with you,
Karen

7 comments:

The Anderson Family said...

I'm reading your blog, Karen, and anxiously waiting with you, too. I know it's not the same - I love you & am praying for both of you. Thank you for sharing your heart.

Erin said...

I feel like waiting is what I'm constantly stuggling with. Waiting on big things, waiting on small things. And I hate it. I know you hate it too. I love you so much, and I'm sorry you have to wait. Praying that you are blessed during this waiting period.

Amanda said...

Karen, you have a great blog! I hope you will keep it up. Isn't it fun?

amymoran said...

I am here waiting and praying with you! I can't wait for you to experience motherhood. You will be a wonderful mother someday SOON! Love you friend

Karen Campbell said...

Thank you for the comments! I appreciate you all!

Stacey said...

I am also reading your blog, Karen! I find you genuine and refreshing! I wish more people were "real"! I think we all get too caught up in ourselves and our lives, doesn't it just make life richer to share each other's burdens? Since I started reading your blog, I've started praying for you and Bryan. Waiting does stink and it is hard, but know that you are surrounded by people who love you and are here for you. :) I always look forward to seeing what you have to say next!

Karen Campbell said...

Bless you Stacey! Thank you for your prayers and your kindness.