Saturday, September 1, 2012

Mustard Seed

How can I sum up our last three weeks? Hopefully the pictures above can do the talking. Even though the waiting is very bitter and hard at times..we are experiencing a lot of joy. I have to admit that I am failing on a daily basis to stay in a place of freedom. I cry, I doubt, I plead, I wrestle with anger, and I lose sleep over it all. Test or no test..our son needs prayer to get stronger. STRONGER. I see that word in my mind all day. I pray that word all day. STRONGER. By the grace of God Caleb is doing well on other areas of development and as you can see in the pictures he is becoming quite the ham. His personality has started to shine and we accept it as a gift from God.

WE have three more weeks of waiting. I may or may not check my phone 10 times an hours waiting on a call. But then I find myself getting angry for waiting for it. So as you can probably imagine I am a mess of a mom just trying to keep a balance of my emotions. I have never felt so helpless. So inadequate. So dependent. When I find myself worrying all I can do is look up and ask for help. There is nothing I can google, nothing I can read, nothing I can tell myself to bring me the comfort I need. There is no escape from the thorn in the flesh. Caleb has a chalk board in this room and all I wrote was GOD- PLEASE COME. That is what I keep praying that HE would come and show his mercy over our son. To help Caleb to become STRONGER and to show him mercy. I so want to see my son walk and run and jump and live a full life.

God spoke Matt 17:20 over our family this week. "If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain move from here to there and it will move and NOTHING will be impossible for you." When he spoke it to us I could tell he was pressing me forward to keep praying, to not give up, and to trust Him.

I would be a fool not to THANK ALL OF YOU for your constant prayers, your cards, your texts, your emails. Your words lift us up and help us keep going.Your friendship means so much. We need you and thank God for you. I am blown away by your love. This mom is forever grateful for your prayers.

Thank you,

The Campbell Family

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Every Tree

Just an update on our sweet son Caleb. He had his blood taken for his Spinal Muscular Atrophy (SMA) test this week.  We were originally told it will take one week to get the results but found out earlier this week it will be 6 weeks!  He was very brave and made his parents and grandma proud!

Thank you for your prayers.  Our family has been deeply encouraged by all of the prayer support and love coming our way. Please keep praying not only that he doesn't have SMA but that God would strengthen and heal him.  We also pray that God will give his pediatrician, pediatric neurologist, physical therapists, occupational therapist, and nurses wisdom in caring for our son.  Also pray that God would give his Mom and Dad strength and courage.

I love to smile!

Caleb looking at trees!

Enjoying breakfast!
We believe in our son. We believe we serve an amazing God. The verse below really stuck out to us because a myrtle tree grows slowly but when it matures it is great in size and nothing like the shrub it was when it started. We are praying for healing and growth. Will you please continue to pray? Would you pass our blog along and ask for prayer? We are coming to the Father asking for healing and that Caleb would start to use every muscle. We are praying for BIG things to a BIG God! We need you all so much and please know how much we appreciate you! Caleb's Aunt Jen made this graphic below...please share this graphic as you share our story. We love you!

Picture by Aunt Jen

Cypress trees will grow where now there are briers; 
      myrtle trees will come up in place of thorns. 
   This will be a sign that will last forever, 
      a reminder of what I, the Lord, have done.
                 Isaiah 55:13

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Hillsong-Rhythms of Grace

I have this song stuck in my's so beautiful.

You should download it if you don't own it. :)

Verse 1
My life is a light for Your cause
My will laid aside for Your call
And reserved are the depths of my heart
Only for You
Verse 2
I'm caught in the rhythms of grace
They overcome all of my ways
Realigning each step everyday
To live for Your glory
Chorus 1
There's none beside You God
There's none beside You God
Verse 3
You're there in the dark of the night
While holding the sun and it's light
Through the triumph and trials alike
There's no-one beside You
Verse 4
Your voice called the stars by their name
'Cause You whispered them all to their place
To testify to Your wonder and praise
Both now and forever
Chorus 2
There's none beside You God
There's none beside You God
I love my life to shine Your light
'Cause there's none beside You God
No eye has seen
No ear has heard
The depths of Your love, Lord
No mind can fathom
The love You deserve
How great You are

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

I can't see

I got ready in the dark yesterday. It wasn't on purpose. I didn't choose the dark, it just came. I had an appointment to attend and I had procrastinated and when I went to get ready our electricity went out. I told myself to go ahead and get ready despite the darkness. As I was getting ready I started to be a bit annoyed that I couldn't see. There was a point when I started laughing out loud because I thought getting ready in the dark was very appropriate for my life in this season.There is something that I am struggling with and I can't see what is in front of me. God literally has given me a moment by moment look. I try to shine my light a day ahead and I see nothing. It's dark. I try to shine my light into the next hour and I still only see my two feet in front of me. I can't see. Jesus is leading me and He has asked me to trust Him. That's a pretty simple concept but it's actually real to me now. I get out of bed and I literally say it out loud that I trust Him. Another hour goes by and I say it louder. This is where He has me. As you can imagine, I feel very uncomfortable. I desperately want a flashlight, I desperately want control, I desperately want to call this whole thing off and turn around yet he cups my face and says to TRUST HIM. God has told me not to trust what I see and that HE moves in the unseen. Would you pray with me? Would you pray that I do? We are praying for His favor, for His mercy, for His provision, for His strength, for His healing, for His wisdom, for His hand. And I can't get that sweet Third Day song out of my head when they sing, "Please take from me my life when I don't have the strength to give it away to you Jesus."