Tuesday, September 27, 2011

I should have known when I woke up at 2:30 am this morning that the day might be a little interesting. I just didn't know all the twists and turns the day would take. I am struggling with trying to complete everything on my list. I wish I had more time in the day to complete everything. It just feels like I am moving at a slow pace. Ever feel that way?? I am desperate to stay organized, yet I find myself doing the opposite! I think I might be my worst enemy here. :)

So tonight, I decided that I am going to take some time to regroup and focus. Drink some tea, write, read, and try to regain my sanity. I think we all need some time outs in life. I pray you are getting the rest and peace you need in yours.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

7 Years of Growing

This weekend Bryan and I will celebrate 7 years of marriage. 7 years of learning and growing with each other. 7 years of ups and downs with complete surprises. 7 years of total faith. This weekend also marks another anniversary for us. This anniversary often goes unspoken between us. It will be 4 years of struggling with a monster called infertility. Although it seems much longer than that as 5 years ago we said goodbye to our baby that we will one day hold in heaven. Even now as we celebrate our expecting child in February, I still think of the sweet life I held in my womb for a short while years ago. Heaven is much sweeter to us now. 

7 years of marriage and plenty of it was spent with tears on our pillows, silent hand holding, and unscripted prayers. Many calls to each other to find relief from the pain and the sweet reassurance that we were in this together.

In the good and the bad we have found much more than living out our vows. We have found a deeper connection with our Savior and with each other. We learned how to love and surrender when nothing made sense. 

So as you can imagine this anniversary is extra sweet for two people who have walked an unplanned journey. A journey that was unplanned but not wasted. A journey that made us different but in a good way...the beauty from ashes kind of journey that only Jesus can bring.

So this weekend we celebrate for more reasons than one. But, we mostly celebrate God for changing us and Holding Us Together.

Love to you,

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Sleepless on my Sofa

"The extent of prayer in one’s life is a direct function of whether something else has been set up as more important than God." Ann Voskamp


I can't sleep. I struggled with insomnia in my teenage years and it seems to be returning for this season in my life. Tonight I decided not to fight it. So here I am...but tonight I have more problems then my lack of sleepiness, I have a heavy heart.

I was reading Ann Voskamp's blog above and you haven't checked her out before you will be hooked. She wrote an entire blog post about prayer and that quote above really made me stop. My summer seemed so full because I had all the time in the world to spend time with God and trust me I did take advantage of it. But, my work has returned which has been nice but I find myself spending all my energy on work and then I am exhausted for the day. Or I spend all my time cleaning and organizing and not stopping to worship. This is sin in my life and tonight God is calling me out on it.

So maybe its not just because I can't sleep but its because God is after my heart and He will even use 3:00 am to grab my attention. I accept his invitation. He is good and worthy of prayer and praise and I can't even begin to write everything He has shown me. I don't want to forget a thing.

Sleep well,

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Welcome Back!

Hello family & friends! I am back! I took a long break from the blogging world but this new weather has brought some energy to my soul! Sometimes it's just hard for me to write. If I don't feel it...then this blog stays blank. I felt like someone covered my mouth this summer because I was just speechless. I didn't know what to say or write. God has been prompting my heart to speak out more.

Bryan and I received some news on Treasure Island Beach, FL that really sent our hearts spinning. We found out in June that God had blessed us with a miracle. We found out we were expecting! It's been hard for me to write about. For one, we have been nervous and unsure of everything but very grateful. For two, my heart longs to serve and minister to women...and that is why I started this blog. To share our journey..and our journey for a long time was waiting for that special news. I will forever remember our journey and the passion I have to serve couples who are or will walk our journey. I still know of so many people longing to be parents. So my heart is still very tendered to that and I pray that it always will be.

Thank you for letting me share our news. We are humbled by it all and I don't take one day for granted. I am praying for you!

Love to you,