Wednesday, June 15, 2011

I Never Knew....

I never knew exactly how my life would turn out. I had ideas of what I wanted my life to look like but sometimes it looked fuzzy. I didn't become a believer in Jesus Christ until I was 16 years old. I remember going through insomnia, and depression before I got saved. I remember holding my mom's hand in our living room trying to explain my deep longing for peace. Looking back, I can now see the spiritual battle that took place around me...the battle for my soul. During that time I felt alone, confused, and I didn't have any hope to feel myself again. Jesus came into my life like a warrior...changing my heart and my life. He became my King. I am so grateful God pursued me over and over. He was patient with me.

As I sat in church on Sunday morning I began to tear up because I never knew. I never knew the beauty He would make of the mess I was in. I never knew I would have an awesome husband, with awesome friends, and a life I would deeply love. I never knew the places He would take me, or the trials He would entrust to me.

I never knew...how amazing this relationship with God would be.

He is good and we can trust Him.

Love to you,
Karen

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Kar, this makes me think of the song "Beautiful Things" by a group called Gungor. It just talks about how the Lord makes beautiful things out of dust and ashes. You should totally check this group out. I think they even have a video online for this song. I love you and am so glad that He has transformed your life into the beautiful woman that you are today.

Steph

Karen said...

Steph-

Thanks for posting! You won't believe this but that song was played for our invitation on Sunday! It was my first time hearing it! Sooo cool that you mentioned it. I love you!